Make it or Break it

Sometimes in our lives, things get so complicated that we lose sight of what really matters. And sometimes we tend to forget how things should be – realistically and practically speaking.

We are so lost in confusion that we didn’t know how to handle things anymore. 

Then, we let the world – the people  around us, the situation we allow – dictate the things that happen… but we should not. 

Flipping coins, having a random roulette, and closing your eyes then opening them to show you which you should choose or do are just some silly ways to get manipulated by luck.

We all want things. Yes, there are choices, and as humans with an intellectual capability, we can narrow those down to which is more important. But what do we do? We assume that we are too weak to determine for ourselves what is best for us. We even end up always relying on other people to make these decisions for us.

This is just unfortunate that most of us are cowards. We are not able to take the risks because we are afraid on how it is going to affect us, the plans and principles we have. But if not cowardice, we are misled by the risky things we do.

I have taken a huge risk. But things and situations change so quickly, even our perspectives do. Then, it changes our decisions.

So, we tend to create these scenes where we get to decide whether it is a “make it” or “break it”moment. Well, for me… it was a “break it” moment. And because it happened, it made things clearer for me. 

Yes, we should take risks.

I knew it was risky… and that was my fault.

I had to go through some shitty things and stupid decisions first – outing myself too much and doing such reckless and bold moves -before it knocks me right over and wakes me up from this obnoxious idea. (Well, literally, my bestfriend pulled my hair; the other threatened to slap me because of this.)

It hurts to get blinded by your desires and this flattery idea because at the end, you are the loser. You expected too much. He doesn’t care.


Now, I get the urge of still playing this petty “game” but, this time, with a different approach. 

It is now the part where I build myself up.

I spend too much time manipulating people to like me that I even forgot to show them that I am already amazing the way I am. Probably, I have this drive that I need to adjust myself to his standards, but I was wrong – that was a pathetic move. Why be somebody else for him? I tried to be cool and be liberated to get his interest. But the heck, I just wasted so much time of senseless conversations. It was all dumb. I was such a fool for him.

Yes, we do some reckless things sometimes. And I think that is part of learning – the hard way. That’s practically fine… because it opened my eyes.

And after all these thinking, I have realized that I kept losing myself, my direction, in these dreamy realities that I forgot I have a life to live.

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I Teach to Inspire

I am currently halfway through my practice teaching. As of now, I’ve already felt how hard it can be to become a teacher, as well as how fun it is.

I used to tell myself that I’ll be that uptight teacher but funny teacher. But now, I think I can’t be like that; instead, be that kind and approachable teacher and strict at times needed. I don’t like my students to fear me. I want them to respect me out of likeness (or even love). I deeply value words of affection and at the same time the act of having to discipline them accordingly.

I don’t want my students to take me for granted. It is important to touch them with your words.

One time, the lesson I was asked to teach is about personal challenges. All we did in class was to talk about their problems and difficulties within themselves. image I was so touched to learn that the activity brought something good to my students. They liked the activity because they felt light and free after it. They learned how to trust and not to judge other people. They knew that they will have that special friend in their class that they can always rely on. It’s overwhelming to hear that kind of feedback from my students. One of my students even cried having her remember her challenges in life. I sort of panicked for a moment because I didn’t know what to say to make her feel better. (Well, I just told her that it will go away soon).

As for my last part of the lesson, I said these words (as I can recall it):

We all experience challenges in our lives, whether if it’s small or big, even within our family, our friends or lovelife. Even if it’s as simple as sitting on the throne, on your toilet, trying as hard so it will come out (and my students laugh at this). Or a big problem in your academics, challenging you to get good grades. Whatever challenges you face in life, I want you to say these words:

image “CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!” (if they only knew how Barney Stinson interpreted this) After that, I told them one of my challenges in life which is my heart condition. I got them all staring at me and paid attention. I told them how difficult my situation is and how controlled my life is right now. That I feel tons of fear when it attacks. But then I get to tell them… even if I felt so nervous to share it to them.

What do I do when it happens? I stay calm and not panic. And I just tell myself that everything will be alright. Always be positive…

It feels so wonderful to be able to let your students realize that challenges are parts of our lives. We don’t have to be afraid because our challenges teaches us to be stronger, wiser, and braver. It teaches us to get up for the 8th time when we fell for 7 times.

I’m still a practice teacher but I felt like I have already inspired my students even just a little – I really do hope so. I know that is God’s purpose for me, 🙂 I know that is what He wants for  my life… to inspire young minds for a better future.

Thank You God for everything, for making me who You want me to be 🙂

LOVE is a FEELING

Nobody can dictate Love.

Not even looks or similarities can tell who to love.

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Love is a feeling that one can’t contain alone.

Love is something to give out that can make someone feel happy,

 accepted, appreciated and remembered.

It is not just some easy choice of a Yes or No?

Love is everything – from every aspect of your being.

Black or white, young or old, rich or poor, experienced or naive, bad or kind.

Sky is the limit when you love.

We choose to love based on what we feel and how we feel.

Love may somehow makes us vulnerable.

It may scare us at times.

But one thing is for sure…

Love is a wonderful feeling – an inevitable thing.

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It was a Rhetorical Question

A Rhetorical Question is when you ask a person a question but you really don’t want an answer to it. You just ask it for the sake of bringing some enlightenment or reminder.

In my Philippine literature class, my professor asked us to write one question on an index card. Any question that we would like to ask or would want to know. So I always wonder: if all people would just learn how to understand one another, the world will be a better place to live in.

So my professor asked for my question and I said (in Filipino) “Bakit may mga taong di maka-intindi?” As I translate it, “Why are there people in this world who can’t seem to understand?” That is my rhetorical question. Because I already know the answer. I know why some people can’t and will not understand.

First, people have different views and beliefs in life. Obviously, how would people understand one another if they just seem to see things in different perspectives? Well, it’s good that the world is filled with people who have different opinions. But the question is – how could we have understanding if we don’t have a common goal? One of the most inspiring quotes I got from attending The Feast (a prayer meeting for Catholics founded by Kerygma preacher Bo Sanchez) is:

“If we only understand and appreciate our differences, we will avoid a lot of fights – and grow closer to each other.”

And I find that this is exactly my principle in life.

Second, they just don’t seem to care to understand. People who act like this are simply ignorant and carefree people. They think having no response is the response, but that is just absurd. It just appears that they are so selfish not to think about other people. It is said in God’s second greatest commandment: Love thy neighbor as you love yourself. One will never understand another if you will not allow yourself to appreciate other people. A little bit of care and sympathy is all it takes to show compassion.

Last reason why people don’t see to understand – and probably the main reason why we have a chaos in the world – is PRIDE. As in pride, wherein a person only sees and thinks what he wants to sees and thinks, for short, close-minded person. According to Merriam-Webster Dictionary, Pride is a feeling that you are more important or better than other people. I hate people having such pride. I can’t deny but I used to be one but I’ve changed, I have become more understanding of the people and the situation around me. I know enough how to handle people with such high pride, and that is to IGNORE THEM. If you ever try to argue with them, trust me, you will never win. Never ever. They will just keep shouting at you (or just making their point all over and over to you) They will never stop unless you tell them they are right.

Lately, I had an encounter (or let’s say an argument) with exactly that kind of person. I feel so sad for them, for I know they will never change. And it’s really hard to deal with it. All you have to do is to Understand. Just Accept them for who they are. I know it’s difficult to not do something about it. But by it, you’re gonna have one less problem.

I’m starting with the man in the mirror. I’m asking him to change his ways. No message could have been any clearer. If you wanna make a world a better place, take a look at yourself and make that change.

Michael Jackson

Start the change within you. Be a good example.

Show them what humanity is…

Show them what the world needs, and that is UNDERSTANDING